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And where do we go from here?

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Been a few busy days… If not workwise, or anything to do with the monkeys then it’s been busy in my mind.

There is so much going on that I wouldn’t have an idea where to start from if I were to tell you all right now…

I have so many unanswered questions… And the more I try to find solution for them the more questions they create…

The one question burning the most is What’s stopping me?

It has been there for a while, and living so close to the airport ain’t helping… I keep getting this urge to pack a bag and go! I’m not sure where, to be honest… just… GO!

And you may call it running away from my life as much as you want… it is true… That’s exactly what I’d be running away from… I feel like I am spiraling out of control… I need an anchor, a beacon shinning from the safety of shore to remind me that I need to call home… and none of the constants in my life right now are strong enough to be one… I know that sounds harsh… but is true…

And I’ve been “adrift” for so long now that the closer something feels to become this, anchor the more it scares me.

I need to move away from here… Both this flat and the place I currently occupy in my mind…

I want more… I need more… I long to BE more…

I feel like I’ve been in the same place for far too long and I need to get somewhere… Evolution… I mean… If not for making it – life – better, then what is the point in even living?

I’ve been second-guessing decisions for long enough… I’ve not been playing my strengths, because lets face it, I’ve been afraid of falling again…

Think is time to re-consolidate and get this show on the road…

Gosh, I’d forgotten just how blogging for myself helped in my decision making process… :)

Where do we go from here? I’m not completely sure… but I think I have a little bit of an idea where to aim to now.

2016 is just around the corner.. And there is no fate but what we make… 😉

 

Hasta La Vista.

 

 

 



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